I used to know this girl...
Big eyes, bigger heart
Flawless start
Wore a long white dress to the playground
Cuz she never got dirty
Played it safe
Watched all the other kids dive first
Get hurt
But not her...
Smoothed out her lace and ruffles
Trouble unknown to her perfect bubble
Watched from afar of how good, bad looked
But never partook
Content with a book and hope
She asked me if I would hold her hand
While she took in this new land
Area was uncharted
And she didn't want to start off wrong
Big eyes, bigger heart
Flawless start
Wore a long white dress to the playground
Cuz she never got dirty
Played it safe
Watched all the other kids dive first
Get hurt
But not her...
Smoothed out her lace and ruffles
Trouble unknown to her perfect bubble
Watched from afar of how good, bad looked
But never partook
Content with a book and hope
She asked me if I would hold her hand
While she took in this new land
Area was uncharted
And she didn't want to start off wrong
I agreed
Letting her know things would speed up at times
Like the merry go round she loved so much
Minus the levers
She couldn't help but touch
This ride would be different...
Letting her know things would speed up at times
Like the merry go round she loved so much
Minus the levers
She couldn't help but touch
This ride would be different...
Years passed on
Dress not so long
Had to cut the sleeves
So her body could breathe in
New experience
Now she's partially exposed
Soap can't wash off everything so
The dress had a new shade
Call it dingy reality
Actually got used to the sweat stains
Of pained truth
Life's proof that no one is invincible
Nor untouchable
Yes lovable, but
Ever permeable to
The up's and down of growing up
Dress not so long
Had to cut the sleeves
So her body could breathe in
New experience
Now she's partially exposed
Soap can't wash off everything so
The dress had a new shade
Call it dingy reality
Actually got used to the sweat stains
Of pained truth
Life's proof that no one is invincible
Nor untouchable
Yes lovable, but
Ever permeable to
The up's and down of growing up
I couldn't protect her like I wanted to
And it was heart-breaking
She kept making calls out to me
Screaming for help
Somewhere along the line
I put her needs on a shelf
Considered everyone else's
Concerned with what they thought
What they sought
Wasn't hard to tell…
I fought myself daily
In a present day hell
Over who to put first
Overwhelmed by the undying thirst for answers
Her voice cracked, crying for recognition
The position I put her in was unforgivable
Damn near unlivable
Yet she kept her trust in me
Regardless of my worthiness to
Be the protector of something so dear
Some days, she would just look at me
Wiping away tears
Failing at hiding the fear she encountered along the way
The little girl was still in there
Somewhere...
Though, something was missing
Her hair had a stench
Of liquor and lust
Substitutes for what her real path should have been
Her heart covered in rust
And she just looked at me...
And it was heart-breaking
She kept making calls out to me
Screaming for help
Somewhere along the line
I put her needs on a shelf
Considered everyone else's
Concerned with what they thought
What they sought
Wasn't hard to tell…
I fought myself daily
In a present day hell
Over who to put first
Overwhelmed by the undying thirst for answers
Her voice cracked, crying for recognition
The position I put her in was unforgivable
Damn near unlivable
Yet she kept her trust in me
Regardless of my worthiness to
Be the protector of something so dear
Some days, she would just look at me
Wiping away tears
Failing at hiding the fear she encountered along the way
The little girl was still in there
Somewhere...
Though, something was missing
Her hair had a stench
Of liquor and lust
Substitutes for what her real path should have been
Her heart covered in rust
And she just looked at me...
Those big eyes told a story of disappointment
Missed appointments of where the blessings were assigned
Told me rash decisions
Took her place in line
Every time they took a piece of her
She was willing to give it
Living off the hope of receiving the same
But that day never came
Unreciprocated efforts wittled her sweetness away
To nothingness
Always loving less than she deserved
Her people pleasing tendencies
Had her teasing her own emotions unfulfilled
Naïve to sleazy intentions
And her only prevention was to be alone
But that's not what her heart called home
She brought the dress back to me
Lying in a box
Said the only way to avoid further damage
Was to keep it sealed and locked
She didn't want to lose it
But leaving it out for everyone
Was a magnet for abuse
I asked her what she wore
She said she just tightens the belt around a black robe
When she answers the door
Don't get dressed no more
She knew what they were there for
And I just looked at her...
And it
The pure white frock had turned to a shade of brown
Like the kids from the park
Stomped it to the ground
The lace was gone
Ruffles lost their fluff
The delicate trim was wrinkled
This dress had had enough
At this point it was unwearable
Irreparable
The biggest patches known to man
Couldn't cover up the holes
Left by them stroking
Poking in their needs
And leaving her seeds to rot
Rarely nurtured by true love's moist soil
Relying on the rain to be her only spoil
While toiling to hold onto whatever's left in her
What's left in her?
A future where perhaps things would look up?
What luck she would have to run into
To build up her defeated trust
And she just looked at me...
Her hair was wet from the constant troubles
Showering down on head
She cowered in the corner of the tub instead of
Standing up and dealing with it
Finally she rose to her feet
Stopped bobbing to the beats of the wrong drums
She'd rather listen to HERSELF hum
The misguiding music was blaring so loud
That I could never hear her
I used my towel to wipe the fog off the mirror
Looked her deep into those big brown eyes
And told her, "I can't promise you anything but
I'll do my best to protect you better this time..."
Missed appointments of where the blessings were assigned
Told me rash decisions
Took her place in line
Every time they took a piece of her
She was willing to give it
Living off the hope of receiving the same
But that day never came
Unreciprocated efforts wittled her sweetness away
To nothingness
Always loving less than she deserved
Her people pleasing tendencies
Had her teasing her own emotions unfulfilled
Naïve to sleazy intentions
And her only prevention was to be alone
But that's not what her heart called home
She brought the dress back to me
Lying in a box
Said the only way to avoid further damage
Was to keep it sealed and locked
She didn't want to lose it
But leaving it out for everyone
Was a magnet for abuse
I asked her what she wore
She said she just tightens the belt around a black robe
When she answers the door
Don't get dressed no more
She knew what they were there for
And I just looked at her...
And it
The pure white frock had turned to a shade of brown
Like the kids from the park
Stomped it to the ground
The lace was gone
Ruffles lost their fluff
The delicate trim was wrinkled
This dress had had enough
At this point it was unwearable
Irreparable
The biggest patches known to man
Couldn't cover up the holes
Left by them stroking
Poking in their needs
And leaving her seeds to rot
Rarely nurtured by true love's moist soil
Relying on the rain to be her only spoil
While toiling to hold onto whatever's left in her
What's left in her?
A future where perhaps things would look up?
What luck she would have to run into
To build up her defeated trust
And she just looked at me...
Her hair was wet from the constant troubles
Showering down on head
She cowered in the corner of the tub instead of
Standing up and dealing with it
Finally she rose to her feet
Stopped bobbing to the beats of the wrong drums
She'd rather listen to HERSELF hum
The misguiding music was blaring so loud
That I could never hear her
I used my towel to wipe the fog off the mirror
Looked her deep into those big brown eyes
And told her, "I can't promise you anything but
I'll do my best to protect you better this time..."
